I think it's really funny that I thought I was going to be able to write in this blog every day. I mean, really funny. I have trouble getting more than an hour of sleep at a time these days and my body is going through some terribly sore experiences where I feel pain a lot more than usual and I don't really know why (except that whole no sleep thing). I am going to try to read some books about baby sleep and gentle sleep nurturing, as well as a new book about meditation and yoga practice.
So I just woke up at 3:15am and I am basically - AWAKE! Of course, that's because I just got over 5 hours of sleep, all at the same time! I can't tell you how long it's been since I accomplished that Everything makes since now - social life, physics equations, falling stars - okay, I'm exaggerating slightly, but only slightly. I am so glad that I slept so much. I feel like a new person. Seriously - words cannot express how grateful I feel right now. I appreciate sleep in a way I never have before. I don't necessarily need "a lot" of it, but a few good hours all together is priceless for me.
My little girl is fighting off something right now. I wish I could say it was a cold or a fever (not really though, because pertussis is going around, and she has not been immunized to anything yet). She had a few little pimples show up on her upper lip-skin a few days ago, and it just got worse and worse and worse, until finally, some pus started to ooze out of it. I've been keeping it clean, putting colloidal silver on it (remember to shake!) and lavender alternately, as well as just keeping her clean and dry as much as possible (lots of baths, lots of hibiclens, lots of Everyday Shea lavender soap). I think, from what I can barely see at 3am, she is doing a lot better. Last night some more stuff oozed out and the redness was almost across her entire upper lip. now it seems to have localized to a little bump, which I put more colloidal silver on, and it seems to be flatter and emptier. *whew* I still have to check her butt in the morning when I change her diaper - she had two spots show up there yesterday morning. But to be fair, sometimes we don't use wipes when we change her diaper (just to give her a chemical vacation) and I think that we may be well past the days when we can justifiably do that. Easy to do in the beginning when their pee smells like nothing and you could literally eat them they're so small and cute (okay, not literally). Now she has much more stuff in her poop and pee and it definitely smells like pee now. Enough to where I think her big girl diapers just allow a little too much contact with pee and her skin for too long, so always, always at least use a wet rag (with something nice like lavender) or the 7th gen wipes I've grown so accustomed to.
I should mention, going to the doctor is the absolute worst case scenario for me. I already know that they will give her antibiotics and may or may not let her come home with me. Antibiotics are so bad for adults, and babies too. Unless you absolutely cannot live without them, I say avoid them at all cost. I'm much more in the camp of eat completely healthy, try different herbs and teas and oils, etc, and meditate until your peace slaps you in the face with good health. So that whole doctor thing is an absolute worst case scenario. I will cut everything but eggs and lettuce out of my diet and try everything in the book before I go to the doctor. It's not that I don't trust a system that is built entirely around making a profit off of our illness... but, you know.
On another note, I noticed looking at Burt's Bees baby selection the other day that their products have more ingredients than 7th Gen products. How can you claim to be sensitive when you have at least 4 different kinds of alcohol in your wipes and lotions???
Okay, hippy, be calm now.
So she had been sleeping poorly (so I had too) and she has been fussy and upset at just about everything (so likewise, I was as well) and now I think we will both be doing much better. I would like to say I could go in there and get another 3 or 4 hours of sleep but that's a mystery, always, so I'm going to go ahead and pump and get some much needed Autumn/Winter research done.
Cheers!
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